for about the last two months i have been 100% absent from my blog. something that has brought me a lot of joy and has acted as a great outlet for me became a chore and only meant time spent away from my child. you see, 8 weeks ago i had a baby; my first baby. and during these past 8 weeks i have spent nothing but quality time with my daughter. enjoying each snuggle, relishing in every smile, and loving each milestone. this little babe of mine is more than i could have ever hoped for and i didn’t want to spend my short time off from work doing anything but really being with her, being present.
on friday i go back to work. it leaves me with a pit in my stomach and an aching in my heart. how do i do it? how do working moms everywhere do it? how do i leave, at that time, my 9 week old baby? i’m lucky in the sense that she will spend her days with her daddy, but i want to be there too. i’m afraid of missing things. missing moments. missing smiles. missing newmilestones reached. missing giggles. missing feeding her. and missing her hand reaching for mine.
these past two months have been nothing short of amazing for my family and i wish it didn’t have to end, but it does. my career is important too, this i know. but my priorities have changed and i so wish i could continue to be with my child all the time. i’m trying really hard to live in the moment these last few days instead of a dreaded countdown, but it’s extremely difficult. each moment past is one minute closer to me having to leave her.
all of you working moms out there, how did you adjust to going back to work? any advice and tips are welcomed. please leave a comment below!